felis extraterrestrialis

i want to be, simply put, fucking amazing at acting. i want to blow people away and make them go, “wow, i did not know acting could be done like that before.” i want to move my audience to tears and make them laugh uproariously; i want them to sympathize with my character, feel, truly feel, as if it were the first time in their life doing so, and they just can’t get enough of it. i want their hearts to be shred to ribbons when she cries, i want them to die when she dies. i want i want i want i want i want but i’m so afraid that i will never be able to do so, and that scares me more than anything.

(but what i want more than anything in the world.)